I recently took aside 3 days to seek the Lord for insight into some the perceived challenges in my life – one of those being the persistent physical sickness and pain. I decided to leave my regular routine and home in Zambia, and go to a friends empty and quiet home in South Africa.
My main overall expectations of God during this time were to gain a higher and renewed spiritual perspective and insight into my life, to be discerning of the times I am living in.
So many amazing people have walked and prayed this journey with me over the last 18 months, and so it is my privilege to share a little bit of how God spoke during this most recent time of prayer.
God my Refiner
God is my refiner. He is busy purifying me in order that I may reflect Him.
The process of refining is a somewhat painful process, but God has not forgot me.
Does a silversmith watch while the work of refining is going on? He watches the furnace constantly, for if the time necessary for refining is exceeded in the slightest degree the silver will be injured.
How does a silversmith know when the refining process is finished? When he can see his own image in the silver…
God is more concerned with drawing me nearer to himself than just bringing physical gain. Both Him and I desire spiritual riches more than physical gain, that means this refining process won’t just end instantly.
“He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.” Malachi 3:3
God my Author
He has already written each of my days in His book. My story is there, the whole journey already planned out with the best outcome possible.
What peace came from reading Psalm 139, and specifically verse 16. And then what desire I have to want to walk in this path that has already been written out for me, that on the day I get to heaven I may hear the words, “Well done good and faithful servant”.
This verse reassures me of the purpose God has for our individual lives, as well as the deep peace we should continue to have in knowing that God knows.
“Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.” Psalm 139:16
God my Vision
In response to my request for discernment over my life events, God gave a beautiful vision of my life in analogy to a tree. He played the last 23 or so years of my life before me like a movie, with the analogy running parallel to the actual life events…how cool this was.
Foundational Time – The beginning of my life through my time on the Africa Trek in 2013.
This was a time of roots going deep down…the growing up and investment of my parents and Salem Church into my life. This was many years, as the foundation/roots are the key to long term survival.
Season of Growth –
This was where the tree started to grow and produce fruit, even if just little shoots coming up. Yet a strong trunk was growing…a solid time of growth and maturing.
Pruning Season –
This has been a pruning season and shaping of the tree. This is when sickness started in May 2015. Stress was put on the tree; a lot of pruning taking place by the gardener in order to allow the tree to flourish at a multiplied rate when the season of fruit returns.
I am currently somewhere in the transition between the pruning and the next season, or maybe still in the pruning…
The clarity I have received is great peace in trusting. This is unexplainable.
There was an incredible amount of specifics that God spoke to me during these 3 days devoted to Him, but the best part was that the main method of speaking He used was directly through His written Word.
Sometimes we ask God for His voice to be made clear, to speak to us so that we can understand. We pray and pray for revelation yet neglect to open our Bibles and receive that which God has already given us.
Through this I was reminded that when I am in the Word, I will be praying in response to the Word, which means I will already be praying in God’s will.
My story has already been written, now it is just my duty to continue seeking God, that I may be faithful to walk in it, resulting in glory to God.
“One generation shall praise Your works to another, and shall declare Your mighty acts. I will meditate on the glorious splendour of Your majesty, and on Your wondrous works. Men shall speak of the might of Your awesome acts, and I will declare Your greatness. They shall utter the memory of Your great goodness, and shall sing of Your righteousness.” Psalm 145:4-7