‘Loosen the controls of your own life. This means being free from dictating to God the conditions in which you think you need to live.’ (Viv Thomas)
Two weeks ago I came down to South Africa for our bi-annual Africa Area leadership meeting and retreat. Five days after arriving I began experiencing sever back pain.
The summary of my Easter weekend was spent right next to Jesus, as I lay still with Him, seeking refuge from pain and in some minuscule way relating to the affliction he endured for me some 2000 years ago.
My colleagues all went back to Zambia on Tuesday, but I remained for further tests and treatment, thinking that I would fly back to Zambia by this weekend.
The last six months somehow felt like my spine was improving. However, my MRI has revealed otherwise.
I cannot fight or run from the reality, but I do continue to trust Him who designed and knows me best!
I recently read the following – ‘Inner freedom is where people no longer desire health more than sickness, wealth more than poverty, a long life more than a short life, honour more than dishonour but instead they desire what brings them closer to the end for which they are created.’ (Ignatius of Loyola)
I am tangibly experiencing that now, as my current state doesn’t permit me to travel or move around much at all. I have been restricted from any further movement until my appointment with an orthopaedic surgeon on May 10th.
May God continue to be glorified through His guidance and miracles upon my life!
‘I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!’ Psalm 27