Obedience before Understanding

Reflections from the Bryce/Zion Freedom Challenge…

When I signed up to be part of the Prayer Team on the Bryce/Zion Challenge this past June, I didn’t know what God was going to do, but considering it felt like a miracle for me to actually be going, I was very expectant.

Saying Yes
It felt like a big step forward for me to say ‘yes’ to this challenge, as just to physically travel there was something I knew God was going to have to really help me with.

Three years ago I got very sick, and from that time have been on an interesting journey with God, where I have learnt to remain thankful despite 24/7 (and many times unbearable) nerve pain.  My ‘work’ since 2013 has been in Zambia with OM, developing a skills training & discipleship centre for vulnerable and marginalized women.  However, last year the pain from nerve damage became so debilitating and I had to return to Canada for further medical care.

Not Losing Hope
Throughout the past year there were many times when I actually didn’t think I would ever be pain-free enough to be able to walk beyond 5 minutes at a time.  If it wasn’t for Jesus, I really would have lost hope.  When a trial starts to span a few years, there may be moments when we start to shift our eyes onto ourselves and our weaknesses, rather than on God and who He is.
I think that is what was starting to happen with me, but God had a plan…

Throughout different types of involvement with the Freedom Challenge over the last number of years, I have always seen how God is not only using the movement to bring healing and hope to those who are oppressed around the world, but also to each of us who say ‘yes’ to participate in the challenges.  I knew God wanted me in Utah for this challenge, maybe even for a boost forward in my own healing journey…

And Unexpected Invitation…
Being part of the prayer team was so amazing, but after the first few days of the challenge I had the urge to experience God on the hiking trail…but how would that happen??  A few minutes later after having that thought, I somehow found myself in a conversation with one of the hiking guides.  She said to me “so, are you going to join us on the trail tomorrow?” I felt a surge of nervous excitement go through me, but proceeded to remind her that I am on the prayer team and am still recovering from a recent back surgery.  I said I feel God might be asking me to try hiking, but I have not yet walked for more than about 20 minutes at a time, and would really hate to slow the whole team down just because of me.  That didn’t seem to bother her, she was so gracious!

It almost felt surreal.  I had zero fear, just expectation.  My mind was focussed on God and his strength.  I didn’t know how I was physically going to hike the next day, but I knew that taking this step of faith was an act of obedience, and that He would make it happen.

Totally Relying on God
So there I went – I ended up hiking with the beginners group for a total of almost 5 miles!!  This was a miracle!  It was an incredible day, where God proved that if we stay focussed on Him, he will keep showing his power through us.  I realized that if I would have doubted God and let fear control me, I probably would have not made it very far at all.  Each step that I took turned into an act of worship…and It was so rewarding to totally rely on Him to give me the power to keep going beyond what my body was previously capable of.

I am still on the healing journey, but will not forget that day and how I experienced the faithful God walking with me.  During that Freedom Challenge God really blessed me with a deeper understanding of His love for me, plus physically blessed me with a boost forward in my healing.  I am SO thankful I responded to His invitation to go!

Through this journey, especially in the chapters of much challenge, I am reminded to continue walking faithfully together with Him, to be obedient and trust the route He’s taking me on even if I do not fully understand ‘why’…this is when it gets exciting!

For more about the Freedom Challenge, visit www.thefreedomchallenge.com

 

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Spinal Cord Stimulator Success!

I recently had the privilege of getting a spinal cord stimulator implanted in my spine.
It has been one of the best medical opportunities offered to me this past year…and now at 8 weeks post surgery I couldn’t be more thankful for it.
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Nerve pain is horrible, and something that I had no idea about until experiencing it myself day and night. At first it was really hard to manage, but was at least still manageable. But over the last 10 months there literally was no type of therapy, medication or basic surgery that could touch it. It was so exhausting both physically and mentally. You don’t want to let yourself be physically controlled by pain, but practically you actually often don’t have a choice.
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This past year has been challenging in many different ways. We may not always be able to control our circumstances, but we CAN control our emotions and actions. I have been encouraged by so many others who are going through incredibly difficult life situations, yet they don’t allow circumstances to shake their beliefs and therefore they don’t lose hope.
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It is so easy to forget that our lives are a gift from God, and even when we feel pain and discouragement we are privileged just to be alive.
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I am so thankful for the grace God showed me by letting me get this surgery done. It is definitely a success in reducing the nerve pain enough to regain a quality of life. My prayer is that it will continue to work well even in the years God still gives me here.
I am thrilled that I was able to start physio last week, and look forward to continuing to recover!

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On Recovery Road

“It is God who arms me with strength, and makes my way perfect.  He makes my feet like the feet of deer, and sets me on my high places.”  Psalm 18

Thank you for continuing to be faithful in prayer, and trusting God together with me for full healing to happen in my body. It has been a long and challenging journey thus far, but I have not lost hope in our miracle working God.

The amount of medical tests, and re-tests that I have had done since July last year has been overwhelming, but I am thankful for each one that has brought clarity into this situation.
The exact time it entered my body is unknown (likely up to a year ago), but a specific bacteria invaded my body. Since its beginning, it has done a powerful job of multiplying itself within my tissues and harming a number of systems within my body.
As a result I have developed thyroiditis, neuropathy and myopathy, which has led to spinal osteoarthrosis, facet joint sclerosis and herniated discs.

I am currently on a good 5 day/week therapy plan where we are doing everything possible to reduce pain and inflammation and aim for regeneration and healing of the mechanical damage that has already been done in my spine and pelvis. Please pray that this month will bring miraculously quick improvements in healing and strength….the last seven months of pain and sickness have really exhausted me, but I continue to find joy in keeping my eyes on Him and am starting to see the light at the end of this tunnel.

“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!”  Psalm 27

 

 

Together we are making a difference!

I am so proud to be working together in Zambia (and beyond) with Pharen,  an amazing Zambian missionary who has dedicated her life to serving God wherever that may be!
As I look back over my past few years in Africa, it is only natural to recognize the ‘Pharen’s’ and the amazing sacrifice they have made to serve their own people!
I believe that on our own we would be successful, but together we have empowered each other to make an even more significant difference in the lives of many people.

Pharen